I had this moment yesterday where I clearly heard God ask me ‘what do you want’? And I was reminded of the story of blind Bartimaeus, and where Jesus asked him ‘what do you want Me to do for you?” It was obvious what Bartimaeus needed but the choice was still his.

Death, darkness, depression comes natural and is where I am comfortable, but when God asked me ‘what do you want’? I realized this is not what I want, I want life and not just life, but life in abundance. I want light and truth. I want to know God in His fullness. I want to live a life of faith and hope. I want to be recklessly abandoned in faith not hedged in by fear.

Stuff happens in life, Jesus said in John 16 that in this life we will have tribulations. But the key is what and Who do you choose when that stuff happens. You can choose to stay in the dark and hold on to the hurt or you can surrender and believe that God can work it out for the best. That He can take the broken pieces and bring redemption. God is faithful, all He asks is that we give the first step.

There are so many places in the Bible where God asks us to take action:
Ask and it will be given you” (Luke 11:9) – you’re not just going to get it, you have to ask
“You have need of endurance that you may receive the promise” (Hebr 10:36) – it means keep going, don’t stop
“You will say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there’, and it will move” (Matt 17:20) – it’s not going to move by itself, open your mouth and speak
“I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing … choose life” (Deut 30:19) – the ball is in your court, what do you want?

I can go on and on, but the picture I get is that God gave us a choice. Even faith, the Bible is full of promises but we can choose to believe them or not.

This doesn’t mean that He will take the tribulations away and that life will be perfect … the broken pieces still hurt, healing doesn’t always come instantly. The difference is that we don’t have to do it alone. We have the promise of His presence, His love, His grace, His provision. Sometimes I think if I had a choice I would choose brokenness just to know His love in this place.

… it’s a choice … life, happiness, truth … it’s a choice!

Ask yourself the question … What do you WANT?